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Tænk så står jeg her. Efter års overvejelse er jeg kommet frem til en beslutning. En beslutning om en vigtig symbolsk handling og så opdager jeg gud hjælpe mig at det ikke er muligt inden for loven, at gøre denne handling.
Jeg vil separeres fra min ægtefælle, men stadig blive ved at bo sammen.
Det kan måske lyde som en mærkværdig ide at blive separeret uden at flytte fra hinanden, men vores situation er også usædvanlig og "mærkværdig" blandt andet på grund af at der er psykiske sygedom i relationen. Vores relation er igennem årene blevet en meget udviklende, skolet, indøvet sublimeret kunstart. Et forhold af "høj kvalitet" og med mange værdifulde elementer. Men jeg synes samtidig at det er et forhold som helt har forladt det vi almindelig forstår ved et ægteskab og i særdeleshed det som jeg selv kunne ønske mig af et ægteskab. Derfor var det måske også rimeligt nok at også forlade betegnelsen ægteskab for vores forhold. Og dermed også forlade nogle af de genside forpligtelser som hører til denne betegnelse.
Jeg kan i øjeblikke ikke se det som en social/moralsk forsvarlig mulighed at forlade den konkret konstellation En egenlig skilsmisse hvor man flytter fra hinanden ville være for "blodig" i vores situation. I hvert fald på kort sigt. Vi har børn sammen og min ægtefælle er på nuværende tidspunk så "låst" i sin psykiske konstellation at hun ikke ville være i stand til at opsøge eller modtage hjælp, ej helder at tage vare på børnene eller tage vare på sig selv hvis jeg flyttede. At hun skulle flytte fra mig og børnene er på det nærmeste utænkeligt. Derfor virkede den symbolske opløsning af ægtepagten som et rigtigt godt første skridt at tage. Og jeg kunne mærke at jeg nu var afklaret og parat til at tage dette første skridt så jeg begynder at undersøge hvordan jeg skal gribe det an. I den undersøgelses proces finder jeg ud af at det ikke er muligt. Se her:

Fra statsforvaltningens hjemmeside:

Først lige lidt baggrund:

"Når I bliver separeret, gælder hverken den gensidige troskabspligt eller fællesejet længere, og det betyder, at I skal dele de ting, I ejer. Når I bliver separeret, arver I heller ikke længere hinanden. I er dog stadig gift, selvom I er separeret, og det betyder, at I ikke kan gifte jer igen med en anden, før I er blevet skilt."

Og her kommer det så.

"Separation forudsætter, at I flytter fra hinanden. I kan dog fortsat bo sammen i op mod 2-3 måneder, hvis årsagen er, at en af jer skal finde noget andet at bo i."


Rimeligt chokerende når jeg nu endelig efter år havde truffet den vigtige sybolske beslutning.

På første side i Statsforvaltningens pjece om skilsmisse står der:

"Alle, der er blevet gift, kan blive skilt"

hmm... Det gælder åbenbart ikke mig.

The main projekt of mine

In a month's time, my main project have been to code an interactive website that could keep track of some playgroups and afternoon events in my son's class. The very idea of these afternoon activities is mine but I went to a meeting where we discussed the idea and I think it was a pretty tough equation to solve and I were soon intrigued by how I could make a online solution that could track the project's many facets. I worked on this as I said a couple of weeks and I learned to code some PHP which I could not before. Now I finally finished the project.
Whether this system will ever come into use, I really do not but I've put a demo out open for all. It could be that someone needed just such a system. In that case, I'd be happy to give away the code and helps with customization.

Here is the demo version of the system

The project is in Danish but if you're not-Danish-speaking and want to see it you can see it through
google translate

I'm glad that now I broadly can leave behind the coding project because I am eager to return to what I really have as my current main project. My real current main project is to remake a picture book that I have created a few years ago into a video slide show for YouTube.

love
Mikkel

Dream after the matrix

Oh now I'm being inappropriate again, but ok I have a good excuse. It's not something I've constructed by waking consciousness, it's something I have dreamed. The image and the text is an adaptation of a strong dream I had the other night after having seen the movie "The Matrix" (read previous blog post)

The Matrix; A perfect staging of the movie experience

Well then, I had seen the matrix. Ten years later than most others. Found a discarded TV with VHS player that stood in front of a house with a note on it saying that it worked just fine and that anybody could just take it.

Some weeks later I found the movie The Matrix (the first one from the trilogy) on a VHS tape along with dozens of other discarded tapes in our bulky refuse basement. This night I had the pleasure to try to see if I could get it to work and get seen the movie. I'm slightly crazy about discarded electronics and often pull discarded items home and test if they work and if I possibly can repair them or so. I was routinely prepared on a bit of hassle and not too sure whether I would get to see any movie that night at all. I had worn the TV up and put it on a chair. Got the plug into the socket and stuck the tape in and "voila" everything happened by itself there was a picture on the screen in ten seconds. Trailers and advertisements from the tape the whole thing just spun. The entire small television seemed much more advanced and modern than I had expected. Almost a little bit unreal.

And now here after I have seen this beautiful movie I can not help but think how perfect it was a prelude to just this movie. The retro technology represented in a VHS tape, combined with the the experience of it being surprisingly sophisticated at the same time. And than the way that this elements, the tape with the film, the TV with the player almost dropped in to my life as if it was all planed from somewhere outside the matrix. I don't know who to thank for this but it sure was a "Perfect" staging of this movie experience.

Love Mikkel

Feldenkrais method

A tweet from @rvisby to day stating that very seldom hard work comes back at one as something bad made me go back and find some text about movement and awareness that has truly meant a lot to me for at least twenty years now. To put this text up nicely and upload it to me homepage. It is the beginning of the book Awareness Through Movement by Dr. Moshé Feldenkrais. Feldenkrais was professor in physics and at the same time deeply in to body work. By being professor in physics he really is well founded on a theocratical level as well witch i find very satisfactory when I read it. Amongst other things he explains why "hart work" isn't always the best solution and that I like because I am not to keen on hart work :-)

OK here is the the linke to the 2 pages long Feldenkrais text

And I'v also put up the text in Danish:

Feldenkrais text in Danish

Is there anyone who will look through this (proofread) for me? It is only a few sentences.

Is there anyone who will look through this (proofread) for me? It is only a few sentences.
It's the intro to a youtube video that I am making out of a picture book I have made. if you would like to help me you can use the comment possibility below this blog-post to post you corrections / suggestions.

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So this is my attempt on a picture book for kids about sex. Or more accurately: This is the video-slide-show-version of this book.

I guess it might upset somebody because it mixes at lest three element that can all bring up strong emotional responses.

1. The book is about sex.
2. The aimed audience is children.
3. The book takes on a spiritual approach the the subject.

I am not planing to be controversial here. The being controversial is just at side effect that I realize could probably emerge. What I have tried to do is simply to make a picture book that present the subject in the way that I would like to present it.

The style of the book is inspired by the Rudolf Steiner movement, but I do neither officially nor semi officially nor in any other way express my self on behalf of this movement. I just like that style.

The book is available for free as PDF for printing or e-book reading from:

www.mimoart.ooz.dk/silver

Pludseligt Beachparty

Na'na (min datter) er halvsløj så vi (den lille firpersoners familie) skal nok bare slappe af. Vi vælger dog at tage et telt med ud på stranden for at være et rart sted og slappe af. Pga nogle trafikale mulighedder med cykel og anhænger og Na'na som ligger og sover i den vælger vi at cykle ud til bunker 3 på amagerstrand og da vi kommer der ud befinder vi os pludseligt midt i et kæmpe beach parti med pumpende strand techno fra dj pulten, boder og masser af mennesker i det rigtige-strandparty-smarte-outfit. Vi køber is og synker ned i nogle behagelige "fatboy" (Sækkestole) lige ved siden af DJ pulten og der bliver vi et par timer og bare chiller og kikker og lytter imens folk omkring os flasher fordele og bagdele og drikker Corona fra blå dåser og taler grinende med hinanden om hvem de har scoret eller hvem de har tænkt på at prøve at score og solen skiner som på Ibiza. Hvor jeg nød det og hvor er det bare typisk vores lille familie uventet at havne midt i sådan nogle oplevelser.